Jonah Hill and Beanie Feldstein (L); Jordan Feldstein.Photo: Todd Williamson/Getty; DPR

Jonah Hill, Beanie Feldstein, Jordan Feldstein

Beanie Feldsteinis reflecting on her “very close” relationship with big brotherJonah Hill.

“It’s just so not how I think of him — we shared a bathroom for so many years, you know what I mean?” Beanie says when Michaela Jaé Rodriguez refers to him asJonah Hillin their conversation.

“But he’s my best friend. We are very close,” she adds. “And we lost our brother, so wehave a very, very deep connection, and he’s like one of the most important people in my whole life, and being his sister is like my greatest joy.”

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Jordan Feldstein, a father of two and music-talent manager who worked withMaroon 5from their inception,died at age 40 in December 2017after suffering a heart attack.

In March 2018, the Los Angeles County Coroner’s Officeconfirmed he died as a result ofa blood clot that originated in his leg. Acute bronchopneumonia and obesity were listed as other significant causes.

In April 2019, Beanie opened up about losing her brother in an essay called “Grief Glasses” for InStyle magazine, in which she wrote, “Grief is just impossible.”

“It cannot be contained or summarized or enclosed,” theBooksmartstar wrote. “To describe the wound grief leaves if you have not experienced it is to come to it hazy and out of focus.”

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In her interview withThe Cut, Beanie — who is leadingHarvey Fierstein’sFunny Girlrevival as Fanny BriceonBroadwaythis spring — jokes she “came out of the womb with jazz hands.”

“I just wanted to be onstage since I born,” she says.

But she also credits Hill’s influence on her career, adding of the two-timeAcademy Awardnominee, “I feel so lucky to have him and his expertise and his guidance.”

“And I think he’s such a tremendous writer and director, and he’s just very creative and wonderful,” Beanie says. “And so I feel so lucky, but I’ve justalways kind of been on my own path, and I get to go on that next to him.”

source: people.com