Kelly Clarksonis turning to music to help her get through her divorce from estranged husband Brandon Blackstock.
On Friday, the 38-year-old artist sat down withGarth Brooksfor an episode ofTheKelly ClarksonShow, and revealed that thecountry star’s song “The Dance” helped her process the split.
“So I’m going through a divorce and there’s been like a lot of books and people always give you stuff to help, especially when you have kids and stuff,” Clarkson said. “And there’s so much shame and guilt, and everybody sends you stuff, and I was just kind of working through it.”
“I couldn’t quite nail down the feeling,” she continued. “Like you don’t want to crap on it, like, you don’t want to say that [relationship] doesn’t count or matter, but you don’t know what to put in it because it didn’t work out like you wanted. So, anyway, I kid you not, I was listening to my playlist and ‘The Dance’ came on. And I was like, ‘No, that’s the thing. That’s it.'”
Kelly Clarkson, Garth Brooks.Trae Patton/NBCU Photo Bank/NBCUniversal via Getty; Taylor Hill/FilmMagic
“So, I literally, not like your song, like a rip-off, but I literally wrote this whole thing therapeutically for me, and it’s actually on my next album,” she said. “The whole come-around, the little tag part is like, ‘Even though my heart is broken / It was worth the dance anyway.'”
“I think a lot of people that go through such a devastating [thing], there’s a lot of grief and a lot of loss and change, especially when you have kids,” Clarkson continued. “All of the books were helpful, but it’s so funny, I guess because I’m a musician, but I was listening to ‘The Dance’… [and] I got the point.”
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Clarksonfiled for divorcein June after being married to Blackstock for seven years. (Theygot engagedin December 2012 and weremarried in October 2013.)
Kelly Clarkson.Trae Patton/NBC
The document added that “the level of conflict between the parents has increased. The parties have a difficult time co-parenting due to issues of trust between them.”
Clarkson will allow Blackstock — who plans to reside in Montana and works as a music manager — to visit the former couple’s children in the L.A. area at Clarkson’s Woodvale residence.
The former couple will share joint physical and legal custody, but Clarkson will have primary physical custody in Los Angeles. Blackstock will FaceTime with River and Remy every day “at a mutually agreed upon time” as well.
Last month, the “Mr. Know It All” singer spoke about surrounding herself with people on the same page as her, adding that sometimes “people could be bad for you in a certain time.”
“And I think that everybody just goes, ‘Oh, well that means they’re bad.’ Well, it doesn’t necessarily mean that, it just means that you’re on different paths,” she said during an episode of her talk show. “And I think that that’s okay. Everybody’s on a different learning curve, and everybody’s learning something different at different times.”
source: people.com
